Inertia bad karma

Since I’m born with all this knowledge and skill and believe that there’s reasons, I’m actually accumulating bad karma by not putting them into action. I won’t be allowed to be happy till I do my job. But I just wanna relax!

Objective measurability and left-brain theories

Cesare Lombroso said you couldn’t measure the physical characteristics that distinguish criminals. He said it was a case of impression of the observer.

This is anathema to scientists of course, and is open to manipulation, non-reproducibility, lack of standards etc etc. Impression is a quick, whole-picture digestion, lacking in rationality/systematicness, ie left brain. Left brain theories therefore don’t lend themselves easily to scientific testing.

A lot of my stuff is like that and will be the thrown-out baby in the bathwater. But right-brain systematisation catches up and divides it up and digests it eventually. Then things have to be reintegrated in a right brain way. When you look at a face it’s more efficient, accurate (and more to the point of what it means to “recognise”) to engage with it in a whole face impressionistic way. So it is with a lot of things.

Old-gene afrontals and executive brain evolution

Sometimes lowered brain activity when doing a task proficiently indicates familiarity. People who are old masters at something barely raise a neural sweat when performing. Afrontal people have lowered activity in frontal lobes in general life. You can say that they aren’t proficient at life, but such absolute judgments about life are beyond us (who are we to make that call).

An objective sign that the afrontals are successful is that they haven’t been wiped out by natural selection. So afrontals are cruising along doing life at half power. They have reincarnated a lot and it takes a hell of a lot of earthly stimulation to fully power up their jaded old frontal lobes. Their particular cluster of genes relevant to the frontal lobes have been on Earth a long time and need to agitate for change on various social levels. This means that there is dynamism in the gene pool because of the tension between people pushing and pulling for the status quo and the impact this has on society and procreation.

The old-gene afrontals have been there done that and make sure that the newbies evolve in a direction that will be successful. Now that we’re becoming a global community and small changes in societal organisation / collective wisdom have massive/instant impact, this cyclical interaction between the frontal lobes’ evolution and society will get quicker and quicker. So the evolution of our highest-brain bits is going off exponentially right now even. Dynamism in the gene pool: polarisation of afrontals and frontals. But then this phenomenon will end up being self-limiting.

Media mind control and whole picture interpretations

People get fed bits of specific detail by the media, but rarely a whole picture interpretation. This means that they fail to come to coherent whole picture views on what’s going on. Most people are unable to do anything more than construct idiosyncratic and useless pictures unless someone else does it for them.

Media is constrained by
1) its own (hypocritical) pretensions to objectivity
2) defamation laws
3) danger of interfering with criminal trials.

Less cynical souls can even interpret the lack of a proffered picture as the lack of a need for one.
A modern person has a substantial part of their psychic world implanted in them by media / pop culture. We all have a vote and we feel like we have free access to relevant information. A, say, feudal person peasant didn’t feel like they had so much power. But they didn’t have part of their minds controlled by media etc, so they would have had more control over their psychic world than us. And though some of this area would have been filled somewhat by the village/family collective wisdom, this collective wisdom is something more democratic and the individual naturally inputs into it.

Anyway besides fighting defamation laws we can use fiction to offer whole pictures to people that are more constructive and that say things that usually get censored.

Arguing with self

When I fill in the details of an idea or defend an idea or attack an idea or reason from an idea it happens like spoken argument in my head. It’s like I split part of myself off and argue with it or try to convince it. Which is analogous to being on one side of a dialectic. Actual intuitively-won ideas do not spring from a spoken source, though.

Psychic identity

Maybe the totality of the things you just know are the markers of your psychic life. Identifiers like a fingerprint. But not because these things are the axioms your rational thought flows from. No one is so consistent and the bridge between the intuition axioms and rational thought is dodgy.

In all the things you just know, most of them are probably more of an emotional or phenomenal sort rather than objective, scientific proposition sort. And many of them would be difficult to express in language. The sum list of them would be a good picture of your psychic identity.

Converting mystical thought into rational

When you push mystical ways of thinking they break down. The reason is that the first insight that the train of reasoning leads from is yielded by the soul in intuitive form. When you start elaborating in your normal rational way things start getting compromised. Rational thinking can be the artificial, stilted analogue of natural, well-formed intuition. You gotta know when to think like an accountant and when to feel and act like an animal. And you have to know when to say “I just know” rather than try to reason retrospectively.

Asperger’s, foresight, insight, lies

Asperger’s people have a hard time trying to manipulate or even lie well. Some types of ADD are marked by good insight into people/situations, bad foresight re their actions / future outcomes.

I think I’m like that, but I think that some types of foresight I’m good at and some types of insight I’m not. Manipulation requires foresight, planning skills. To me insight seems like a more static kind of deal, built up long term and deeper than foresight. More to the heart of how things are than contingent events.

And I think that the brain issues involved are linked to how I am at maths. I can never understand it at first. I can’t do problems quickly. I suck at basic arithmetic. But once I get immersed in an abstract area of maths for a while, I develop a deep understanding.

I can’t manipulate in real time as effectively as other people. I have trouble even knowing what’s going on. All I have is a feeling yielded by insight that there are inconsistencies or that there’s the stench of deception hovering around. But I think that insight gives you the ability to manipulate on a more deeper and slower level. It makes you win in the long run.

Me dramaholic

I have problems with definition of self coz of my drama addiction. I think it’s hard for me to be interested in or properly understand anything outside myself. Normally in my depressed state the sphere I’m interested in is my inner thoughts / psychic world. When I’m manic I care about the world. My understanding of people is full on. My control over the world expands. It’s like my self seeps into the outside world and it all becomes a part of me. It’s my world, literally. When I’m depressed I try to find a more substantial sphere of self than my thoughts. That’s why I’m compelled to find an entry point to the world through other people and intense experiences.

Levels of free will intervention

Your soul decides your birth date, family, genes, birthplace, life journey/lessons, etc. It intervenes periodically in the workings of your life and intervenes sometimes in the thoughts/decisions your conscious mind has.

Your conscious mind performs the functions dictated to it by the determined physical laws of the Universe operating on the brain and nerves. The conscious mind tells the body to do things and body does them of its own accord thereafter.

If the body makes a mistake, eg, drops a carton of milk while making breakfast, you blame the body. Your conscious mind merely told the body to make breakfast (or, depending on how automatically you’re operating, the conscious mind gave more continual detailed directions) and is not going to hold itself responsible for the miscalculations/misexecutions of the body. But when the conscious mind blames the body it’s like kicking the car for breaking down. Not productive, which is why most sane people don’t stress over it that much.

The soul doesn’t blame the conscious mind and the conscious mind doesn’t know the plans of the soul. But there’s a more complex set of levels of life awareness suggesting that it’s more of a continuum. And it stretches indefinitely upwards towards the point of infinite knowledge of the Universe and ultimate responsibility and ultimate all-seeing control of the self and life.

But once you start going that way you lose the individuated soul. It’s impossible for an individuated soul to understand everything that’s going on. Other individuated souls are unknown quantities. If you know what’s the ultimate good plan for the universe, you know and pursue the exact perfect path that other souls do - impossible. It can only be done precisely once by one entity. The soul of the Universe which we extend up into. An octopus.